I know it’s been ages since I’ve posted, but I had to come back on here and acknowledge…
for the first time in 20 years
Force ghost anakin skywalker appeared on screen
In a real star war
and somehow I was not expecting it at all and it was like I was suddenly emotionally body-checked by a Feelings Linebacker
Yes, yes I cried during the 5th so and haven’t been able to watch it again, it was so good… but this… this fucking avatar of mine became so core to my online personality for so many goddamn years. It’s been my phone background, my desktop background, my pop socket had one on there for a while… sometimes I forget that there are people out there on twitter and other apps that don’t know me with that avatar as an identity
And I haven’t been very Star Wars-y this year, I’ve been so stressed about my horse and her illness and other dumb stuff happening in my life… and for a minute there, when he popped up in the corner of my eye at the bottom of the screen, I didn’t understand why I felt like I’d been hit by a small train. It took a moment for my brain to catch up.
So I thought I’d celebrate this little milestone with y’all, because you’re the only ones who’d really understand. It feels like a wholeass goddamn stone door just closed on a chapter of my life. Fucking wild. It all comes back around.